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My Diary from 1985

diana Stone — Sun, 03 Oct 2010 18:32:08 +0000

Just by chance I happened to open an old diary from 1985 and it felt open on a significant page. The end of a somewhat odd relationship with a girl who had Bi-Polar. At the time I was not aware of the devastating effect that Bi-Polar has on peoples lives and I had not identified my the nature of my own mental problems either.
I worked back through the diary and discovered that the relationship had lasted 6 months almost to the day. I suspect that there were many reasons why it did not work out but I have no doubt that one of them was simply my being far too needy. Also to be honest I was not terribly interesting company in those days and may well have seemed very boring indeed. If I had been able to meet me then I would I think have found someone with very limited horizons doing a dead end job that was easily amused and incredibly naive and also in complete denial of their own nature.

What is strange to me is that I should find out 25 years later that she had taken her own life a few years after I knew her as I had always imagined her as the kind of person that would have succeeded at most things she wanted to do…

Life leads us down some very strange paths.

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Pictures old and new

diana Stone — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 20:56:40 +0000

Diana on the Charles Bridge in Prague

From a holiday when things were changing quite a bit.

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diana Stone — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 17:23:54 +0000

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Right Now Right here

diana Stone — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 23:40:48 +0000

Just me

Things are not quite going the way I expected on the whole. Its coming up to 2 year’s since I left the Civil Service and nothing has gone as I planed. I have learned a lot and mostly I feel less stressed and apart from a few minor lows I have not had any re-occurrence of serious depression but the plans I hoped to put in to action to support myself have flopped quite badly.

I have achieved quite a few things that I am proud of including:

National Radio play for one of my Glass Cage songs
Local radio play for Elephant Shelf
Performing in a fringe festival
Performing regularly as an accompanist in a west end venue
Singing lead vocals live with a band regularly
Telling jokes as part of the duo act
Recording and mastering a CD for Elephant Shelf and getting 1100 pressed
Playing at some very well known and respected venues
Joining PRS

I could go on, its been quite a learning curve so on a personal level it’s been good and worth doing but financially its not going well.
I had hoped to do some IT freelancing but on the last project I got unwell and had to stop though ironically I seem to be functioning better than ever now. But I fall apart under any sort of pressure. There has to be something that I can do to make up the short fall financially with out cracking up again.

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