Times and Tides

It’s now mid March and soon theoretically the first stages of exiting lockdown will commence and  will be able to arrange to meet people and socialise outdoors in groups of up to six or two households.  It wont seem that different for me really under present circumstances though.  I guess it will mean more people out and about locally though. It’s also getting milder out too.Our last stage of construction works on the building site is now in its final phase with the park area to be landscaped and some more trees planted. Once that is finished I will be able to walk straight out of the front door and down across the water meadow to the banks of the Great  Ouse at Kempston Mill.  the Mill itself is long gone but there is a nice block of flats  looking the part and presumably built in homage to it.There will also be a very  pleasant view in the summer months from the veranda. I am hoping perhaps post plage  I can get the odd passing  minstrel  to join me in an  alfresco performance or too.  That’s something to really look forward to and there is perhaps a months worth of tidying up and landscaping to be done at most now, though judging by the current speed of the site being cleared it may  less.  Then we may well  hopefully see meadow flowers again.  

I am still feeling somewhat rickety overall. Its 17 days since I had my covid vax. I do feel a bit rundown generally  though.  I am not sure if this is in part depression. Curiously yesterday I felt quite energetic but I had places to be and stuff to do. Today I feel washed out and exhausted again.  I am even with the regular  exercise not perking up and the loss of the routines of gigging and setting up equipment and late night drives and the buzz of life going on is perhaps at least part of the reason I imagine. No adrenaline or else I have exhausted it all.  I tend to feel dopy for the first half of the day and sort of wake up in the afternoon so perhaps it is in  a great part psychological.  Though I am sleeping I do seem to be dreaming a lot or at least remembering dreams much more than I usually would.  I have a few odd intrusive thoughts that bother me a bit. Again due to too much time to think rather than doing I suspect. I did start drawing and painting a little last year, but that has gone by the wayside. I have been pleased with some of the results though and use one picture for the last digital album artwork.   

I have done very little in regard to my To Do List so far. Its haunting me and hinting that I should make a start.  April maybe?  Actually one item which is on going can be ticked off so its not quite that bad I suppose.  I always think of the proper start of the year as April as that’s when the seasons start to turn the corner and the days get longer. In days of yore could I would  often get a tax rebate too, but alas no more.   Finance is a bit of a sticky wicket at present though and is requiring very close management as its looking very unlikely  that I will be getting back to much if anything in the way of paid live performances this year, though perhaps the odd guest appearance in autumn may happen with a fair wind. 

2022 is an unknown country at present.Whilst I am OK to play I seem to be getting more trouble with my back and related arthritis issues and that may also affect how much I can do.  I think time is catching up with me now a little judging by the way I feel at present. though.    
In between blogging this entry I have started working on a  bit of a tune.  It might be interesting, but the process is just starting with the piano and percussion part recorded which fitted well together. In fact better than I expected so a promising start.   

I also need to get  around to completing the census form before I forget too.     
The excitement never ends 🙂

The evil that men do lives after them; The good is oft interrèd with their bones.’

(Julius Caesar, Act 3, Scene 2)